rest, sweet rest

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28)

I have been very tired today for some reason. But one of the best things about the progress I've made in terms of my health is that these days, when I'm tired, I get in bed...and I go to sleep. I recognize that this doesn't seem like a big deal, but it's something that I haven't been able to do with any sort of consistency during the last year. I would lie awake for hours, exhausted, but unable to sleep. Then came the vicious cycle of getting angry because I couldn't sleep, and therefore being too angry to sleep. When I told people about my insomnia, they would inevitably ask if my "mind was racing," but in fact, it was my body that was racing, literally unable to rest. Finally, it's slowing down, and when I lie down, I sleep. I have never appreciated sleep this much before. I am weary and burdened, and I'm so thankful for God's gift of real rest, figuratively, of course, but also literally.