Saturday, July 5, 2008

standing on the brink

I went to see Kansas on the riverfront on Tuesday (which was pretty awesome), and these lyrics have been echoing in my head ever since:

Hold on, Baby, Hold on
'Cause it's closer than you think
And you're standing on the brink
Hold on, Baby, Hold on
'Cause there's something on the way
Your tomorrow's not the same as today

People keep saying things like "It'll be here before you know it!" It, of course, meaning my move to Mississippi. And I guess they're right, but the time is going by so slowly right now. I'm having to work day shift at work, and while that does mean getting to do a lot more therapy, it came at the worst possible time, because I have pretty much lost interest in my job. This is partly due to lots of frustration with the inefficiency and inconsistency of the agency, but it has even more to do with the fact that I want to be in Mississippi now. Adding to my excitement about the move is the fact that Alexander is already there, and I'm anxious to get on with this new chapter of the relationship (which I trust will be far superior to the current state of things). Plus, my frustration with work has made me more and more eager to be in the classroom, learning, so that I can be better at what I do, so that I can get a better job than this one.

Basically, I feel anxious and I need to get on with it. It will happen soon, but for now I just have to... well, hold on.